breaking news

i'm in love
with love
surrounded by lovers
surrounded by friends
i want them all
but i can only have one
and i should really need none

its true what they say
how i act in this way
stop staring
i dont judge you
okay i lied
actually i do

so where do i go from here?





dont read too much into this
its not meant to be deep

hypothetically speaking

so listen. there's a situation. here's where i'm at.


so there's me. right? standing. a cramped and narrow hallway.

and i'm claustrophobic.

and i'm stuck between two doors. one closed. one open.. slightly. but here's the problem, right? there's always a problem. and the problem looks like this: both doors only open outwards. which means, i can't open one door without closing the other. so i cant have both doors open at once. and i can't escape. and if i were thinner i could somehow slip through. and if i were smarter i could engineer a way. and if i were more beautiful.. well that wouldn't really do a thing. but i'd be beautiful, so at least i'd have that.

but as it were. im none of those things. so im just stuck here, in between two closed doors. and where one door closes, another one opens..

but someone failed to tell me that opening that door required the closing of another.

our picture-perfect movie ending

isn't that how it always goes?
though the world may pull us apart
we'll make it in the end
fighting at our ropes and chains
running through the rain
for our chance at forever
but this time it will be

do you think we could be them tonight?
just for this night

i made it through

i hate myself for missing you.
our memories.
they're faded blue.

i'll tell you the real truth

because i know you won't read this


when our hearts are breaking, i take comfort in the fact that we still know how to feel.

the truth is, if you could only know how my heart still flutters the moment you walk into the room. how my breath catches and i feel like everyone within a mile radius can see my heart beating out of my chest. you still have that effect on me.. but you know ive always been good at hiding

nothing makes me as nervous as the sound of your voice. and its your music i turn to when i miss you too much to bear. familiar melodies surround me and lull me to sleep with my arms wrapped tight around the final fading yet tangible memory you left for me.

i know you think im not trying. but the truth is, not having you has been one of the most difficult things i have ever had to endure. and it hurts.

and you're lying again. i havent got another one. ive tried looking but for now it seems as if nothing can replace what we once had. because the longer i live, the longer i know that what we had was real and nothing can take that away. passion doesn't strike up that fast for it to die out so soon. i sometimes think we knew we were killing ourselves by falling so hard... but i do know i wouldn't trade it for the world.


so i'll be here - wishing praying waiting - for the end.

your day

are you dancing today
on this wonderful day
the sun is shining
and i think it's God's reminder
of your brilliant smile

i'm still missing you, beautiful girl

baby steps

with a foot in both worlds
i take a step forward

with you holding my hand
i know i can stand